How do I allow myself such indulgence, a certain girl as I am? Is it right that I feel so aroused that I tare at my clothes to touch and feel my body. But I have never enjoyed such intense pleasure on my own, as I did that morning. Such a toxic combination of memories, lust and physical sensation, I let go of what seemed right, and allowed my indulgence to wash all over my body with such a strong sexual urge.